The choice to go beyond suffering can be challenging.
Simply because suffering has been the way of living for human beings since the beginning of history.
Suffering was the only way of living I knew.
And when I speak of suffering, I also speak of dignity and worthiness.
Do I deserve an absolutely joyful life? Or can I only be happy after working hard?
When I chose to go beyond all suffering, I chose to go beyond karma.
The karma of past lives, which I have come to know very well in my meditations and inner journeys. This has been released. No ancestral connection is a prison for me. In place of prison is gratitude, honor and liberation.
I also chose to go beyond trauma, the way I was raised, the wounds of childhood. Of course I needed to look at all these wounds and painful memories with great clarity and compassion for many years. Until they stopped being painful and transformed into wisdom that serves me, into beautiful parts of the beautiful story of my life. A story that I love today, a past that is now shrouded in light.
When I chose to go beyond all suffering, I chose to go beyond drama. I cannot be the creator of my reality while I see myself as a victim of it. I cannot point fingers and blame the outside world, because I am the only responsible for the emotions and thoughts that I choose to feel and think, and thus I create the reality around me that corresponds to my choices.
To truly go beyond all suffering, it is necessary to open yourself to life completely, without resistance.
It is necessary to welcome each sunrise and each blow of the wind, it is necessary to breathe deeply the joyful song of the birds and the scent of the flowers.
It is necessary to dive deep into the colors of life and dance joyfully the dance of love.
Living a life without suffering is done with the courage to look at your darkest parts, see them without judgment and being honest with yourself.
It is done with a loving and caring look at yourself.
You feel all this love flowing through your body and your entire Being.
And then this becomes your full reality.
Fully loving yourself and being love with All That Is.
Fully living what is destined for us, Human Beings.
A life without suffering, a life of Joy on Earth.
This is a colored pencil drawing I have on my bedroom wall.
I created it as a mirror to see myself clearly.
I was feeling trapped on identity.
I still cared so much about how others saw me and about what others thought of me, that it wasn't letting me be myself fully.
It was a pattern I chose to break.
I chose to set myself free to create a clearer self-perception - that is based on how I see myself rather than how others see me, or even, how I used to see and judge myself based on old stories.
It allowed me to integrate identities I wasn't even aware I was identifying with, parts of my shadow.
They were like subtle thoughts in my subconscious, like the belief that I was not good enough, for example. These parts of my shadow became visible through events in my life and were then easily brought to light through conscious breathing and presence, thus being integrated into my Being.
This shift of perspective is representend through the many eyes in my drawing, I drew each one of them as an eye that faces inward. So it's like all the outside eyes are looking at me, but they become my own eyes having an inner look.
This inner look doesn't exclude any parts of who I Am.
These eyes see me fully, Whole.
They see my beauty and my fractioned parts.
They see my grandness and my glow.
And they look with so much compassion, encouraging me to acknowledge All That I Am.
Self-acknowledgement also came as a gift when I opened to this clearer self-perception.
The ability to acknowledge all the good things I've created in my life, that I was just taking for granted. To feel grateful to myself, to honor and thank my choices.
These eyes even look me with admiration. And not just admiration for who I am as a person, but also for the uniqueness of my essence.
All these experiences are an ungoing unfolding, as I integrate every identity and become identityless, as I merge completely in divine consciousness.
My drawings are also portals into other dimensions, and since my post is inspired by this eye drawing , I will share a multidimensional experience I've had with it.
I was breathing and looking at my drawing like it was a mirror, when I remembered that it was also a portal, and I communicated with it subtly.
My attention turned to the little orange butterfly right on the top of the drawing.
The butterfly, my pakawuah* 🦋
I felt her in my heart and felt inspired to sit on a bench in front of my house to write on my notebook.
In the middle of the words , a butterfly appears.
A simple drawing with a simple pen, a simple butterfly.
"Fly to Theos" she says
That's what I write right on her side.
Then I close my eyes, I take a deep breath, and Theos comes to me.
I am on a Crystal Cave, under the sea, on Theos.
What a magical gift my friend the butterfly gave me!
The experience continued a few days later:
I Am at the beach with my partner, Lucas
We both sit on the sand in silence and stare at the sea. It's a cloudy day and some gentle rain is falling.
Out of nowhere a butterfly appears, crossing the horizon just in front of us, flying furiously against the wind and then disappearing inside the sky.
She just disappeared inside the sky.
What else could she say?
She just demonstrated how to transced dimensions.
If that said something it was certainly "fly to Theos, like me!"
I felt so inspired by that beautiful creation that when I got home I gave myself one of my "Magical Travels"
Simple Conscious Breathing & Allowing Theos to come to me again.
It's all connected, seeing myself and expanding into all realms.
*pakawuah: animal that accompanies you on your spiritual journey.
I hope this post has inspired you to cross dimensions, to breathe deeply, and to acknowledge All That You Are, each and every day 🌟
With love, Liah'ah.
"The strong warrior fights, she gets everything from effort, from hard work and discipline.
The Wise Magi allows, she receives and flows. The Wise Magi lets it all comes to her, standing still in the midst of All Creation, watching the movements of life, moving and dancing with life.
The Wise Magi savors the uniqueness of each moment, knowing each experience was created for her Joy.
The Wise Magi won't fight to accomplish a result, but rather will dive deep into life without any expectation, open to All adventures that may come."
I write this as a very tired warrior, retired from the battlefield, from the inner battlefield of light and dark, of good and bad, right and wrong. The battlefield created by the illusion of separation.
As I said, I got tired of fights, and I got tired of suffering.
I've made the choice of receiving instead of resisting and I have been watching it unfold.
I have been allowing myself to open up to All of my light, with no restrictions... open to see the dark and don't fight it, open to see my magic happen.
Deep integration comes in response to that. Good deep beeaths and remembering my choice, always remembering my choice, being committed to myself.
And the peace in my heart is the reward for that.
Being the Magi is so much more fun than playing all the old games.
Liah'ah